speechless

"Things are falling down on me
Heavy things I could not see
When I finally came around
Something small would pin me down
When I try to step aside
I move to where they'd hoped I'd be

Vanessa calls me on the phone
Reminding me I'm not alone
I fuss and quake and cavitate
I try to speak and turn to stone

Tilly reaches through my vest
to do the thing that she does best
she probes and tears my ventricles
steals my one remaining breath

Things are falling down on me
Heavy things I could not see
When I finally came around
Something small would pin me down
When I try to step aside
I move to where they'd hoped I'd be

Stumbling as I fall from Grace
she needs my vision to replace
her ailing sight throughout the night
leaving two holes in my face

Mary was a friend I'd say
'til one summer day
she borrowed everything I owned
and then simply ran away

Things are falling down on me
Heavy things I could not see
When I finally came around
Something small would pin me down
When I try to step aside
I move to where they'd hoped I'd be"

Two Names You Go By

Alyss
Aly


Two Parts of Your Heritage

Irish
German


Two Things That Scare You

Rejection
the dentist


Two of Your Everyday Essentials

food
weed


Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now

pearl jam shirt
sneakers

Two of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists (at the moment)

msi
matisyahu

Two Things You Want in a Relationship (other than Real Love)

trust
empathy

Two Truths

i watch american idol
i just got some bomb treez

Two Physical Things that Appeal to You About the Opposite Sex.

idk

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies

listening to music
smoking

Two Things You Want Really Badly

will power
inner peace

Two Places You Want to go on Vacation

hawaii
amsterdam

Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die

get rich
become famous


Two Ways That You are Stereotyped

fatty
bitch

Two Things You Are Thinking About Now

mike's denial
calling mah college peeps [all 3 of them]


Two Stores You Shop At

big lots
walmart

Two people you haven't talked to in a while

phoebe
iris


Two favorite web sites

rotten.com
myspace.com

Two pets you had (have)

bruno
dragon

Two Favorite Sports

driving
volleyball


Two People who will fill this out

your mom
your mom's mom

Two things you did last night

drank
laughed


Two shows you like to watch

king of the hill
family guy

Two places you like to go "out" to

parties
dining out

this is the saddest rainy day ever.
my car left me stranded in derry [it needs a battery]
i dropped my phone in the toilet [now it won't make outgoing calls]
don't have a registration key for micro office 2007 [can't do my homework]
my sneakers/socks got wet [now my feet smell like ass]

About you and your other half.



A lot about you!
What is your name?
alyssa

How old are you?
19

When is your birthday?
dec 4

Are you looking forward to it?
sure

Why?
cuz i won't be a teenager anymore

Are you happy?
think so

What makes you happiest?
hugs

Are you afraid of something?
yes

Do you live alone, or with someone else?
someone else

Who?
college rommmate, parents at home

Do you have any pets?
yes

What is your favorite cartoon?
daria or the simpsons

Have you ever hit a deer?
no but i saw one after someone else hit it

Do you drink?
occasionally

Do you prefer beer or liquor?
liquor

What is your favorite non-alcoholic drink?
pina coladas, milkshakes, energy drinks, etc

What kind of cell phone do you have?
LG

Do you like it?
yeah, it's fine

What is the funniest word you ever heard?
satchel

Do you hate it when people call you "dear"?
yes

To whom have you sent the most text messages?
recently? i think dryer

What did you do for new year's eve?
drank too quickly at a hotel party n' left early

were there lots of pictures?
think so

What is your favorite movie?
there's too many

What is your favorite song?
there's too many

what concerts do you want to see in 2008?
matisyahu, rush, MSI

Do you have any tattoos?
yes

What is your favorite place to chill out?
my dorm, mike's room, tim's room, joe's dad's house

What is your favorite song to play on guitar hero?
pat benetar

Do you work out?
no

Do you wear any jewelry?
i go through phases

What is your favorite memory of the past couple of years?
there's too many

What is your goal for the year?
remain sane

What do you think about when you first wake up?
usually i freak out about wanting to know what time it is

Do you shower daily?
definately

....alone?
most of the time

Have you ever eaten sushi?
yess

Did you like it?
i like sushi without the fish

List three things you can't live without:
weed, mike, car [maybe in that order, idk]

What is your best physical feature?
my armpits.

What is your middle name?
jeanne

Do you get choked up during dramatic movies?
yes

What is your biggest pet peeve?
the phrase 'pet peeve'

have you ever liked someone that all of your friends hate?
yes, as in right now

Is there anything that you regret?
surely

Do you want children?
not really

How many?
0

Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
grr.. yes

What is your favorite number?
23

What is your favorite sports team?
i dont know

What is your most over-used phrase?
"cool"

What do you not say enough?
"you're right. i'm wrong"


You and your other half:
Did you get over your ex, or are you over him/her?
i'm over him

Are you currently with someone?
yes

Do you love him/her?
yes

Who said "I love you" first?
him

Where?
don't know

Would you date your ex again?
not sure how to answer this

What is your longest relationship?
my first

What is your most significant relationship?
probably the one i'm in now

What is the most romantic thing a significant other can do?
idk

Do you like pet names?
sure

Do you have any?
kind of, maybe, perhaps

Is there anything that you won't tolerate in a relationship?
of course

Do you believe in living together before engagement/marriage?
yes

Where did you meet your significant other?
in the dunkin donuts part of wal-mart

Have you ever broken up?
yes

Have you ever had your heart broken?
yes

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
i'm not sure

What is your significant other's birthday?
sept 4

What is your anniversary?
um.. we're not married

Does this person know you better than anyone else?
probably

Is this person younger than you?
no

Where was your first date?
lots of places

Would you marry this person?
i don't know

Are you happy with your sex life?
generally. but it's complicated

who is "Your" band?
tech n9ne

What is "Your" song?
"i want you" savage garden

Do you think you'll be together for a long time?
maybe

Do you lay in bed and cuddle a lot?
yes

Where was the last place you went together?
his house

Do you do a lot of surveys?
no

did you like this one?
kinda


http://www.pimpsurveys.com/view-survey.php?id=9990

my psychology teacher was new this semester. she came from suffolk i think. the first week of school i instantly dubbed her my favorite teacher. she had personality, liked what she taught, and was always clear in presenting the information to us. not to mention she reminded me of a more beautiful, thinner, dedicated, intelligent version of myself... anyway, the reason why i felt inspired to write today is because of her. at 1:00 i took the final (PIECE O' CAKE!) and when i handed it to her she said, "I really enjoyed having you in class this semester. You're awesome."



and it felt good.


the end.